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Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Brown and White

I was introduced to heroin in the Nederlands.......like so many other new "things" I was introduced to......THERE!  




I had steadily avoided it for all of my life up until I began to live with some friends who were daily users.


  I had after all, grown up in the Great Satan, the USA where drug users {(drugs besides caffeine, nicotine and alcohol) have been demonized since 1936 (or before!)} and had an uncle who was deemed the "leper" of the family and shunned etc because he was a "junkie."  So, I did have some fear of the drug and that is why I would only try it via smoking b/c I knew I could titrate the dose perfectly that way, avoid "hot shots......" you get my drift.


I normally don't care for Opiates in general.....they are excellent for PAIN!!!!!  But had never taken them just for BOREDOM or worse, "lovesickness."  Now a caveat..none of my friends used it IV (one was a previous Iv user, but he's blown all his veins by the time I met him.)  


So, they all just smoked it.  About 5 guys, 1 girl used daily about 4-6 times a day (smoking it with the "aluminum foil method,") and one older man only used tobacco and I preferred coke freebase only.  They (the heroin users) claimed it was impossible to just use freebase with out "balancing it with heroin."  I showed them it was possible, though I made no converts......


Yet living with it everyday, and smelling the pleasant smell of it, finally I accepted an offer to try it.  It was ok.  Nothing really special in my opinion...but a nice mellow "warm fuzzy feeling." And it definitely was an anxiolytic.  And a couple times I tried it, I was injured and it really did help my back after I had been hit on a bicycle by a car.  



One friend, my best friend there in A'dam (best MALE friend) was very protective of me, because he did not want me to "get addicted," like him.  I explained and lectured about the false paradigm of addiction, gave book references  etc. but he/they never looked into it. They continued to believe that to use coke you had o use heroin too.  It is not true if you have sufficient mind control abilities.